Starting Over



So I have decided to start fresh. I have deleted my first blog, put the other one away and started this one. I have named it "See Amy Be A Mum" because while trying to think of a name an old book popped into my head. Remember those old learning to read books?? I remember reading "See Jane run. See Dick run. See spot run. See Jane and Dick run after Spot" I don't know what made me think of it but that's where I got the name.

My first ever blog was so personal and private. I don't think I shared it with anyone. It was a place were I was able to vent, to cry and to remember. It was about my miscarriage in 2009. After about a year or so I felt it was time to let the blog go. I could have hidden it and started new but I felt I needed to delete it altogether. I will never be able to delete the pain that I felt or the memories that go with that pain. As the years went by the pain was revisited twice with 2 chemical pregnancies and then finally in the fall of 2011 hope was born. A tiny little + sign on a stick. Of course fear soon followed but somehow excitement and hope overpowered it.

Which brings me to my next blog. "Preggo PandA". Yes, Peter and Amy were pregnant! Kallen was a honeymoon baby or a wedding night baby depends on who your asking. When we got home from Vegas I felt weird. I had felt this feeling before but was in denial. One yucky night when Peter was out I though "Hey, what's the harm in peeing on a stick?" that's simple question changed our lives forever.

The first blog was the pain of a loss. Preggo Panda was the joys and hardships of being pregnant. This blog is about Life, Love and Motherhood. 7 weeks in and it's not what I expected...but for the most part in a good way!